This report is not under any circumstances meant to be used as a reprisal or to be vindictive, but rather to serve a purpose of setting an innocent woman free and to share what happened to me.
To me Michael Roberts wasnt a bad man, I believed he began using drugs as a way to escape his family life and wife Tracey. I justified that Traceys actions caused him to take drugs and become angry and abuse mehis abuse of me was his only outlet for dealing with his own family life. What if Michaels drug addiction began as his way to escape all the hell at home, maybe because I did not offer to help with the his home invasion plan before the Christmas holiday, I was the reason for his drug problem? I felt sick and my body shuddered with humiliation. I went between intense guilt because of not helping with killing his wife, and wanting Michael to find the determination to simply leave his marriage and start life anew.
Michael told I was responsible for his family devestation and also my own. That my own fathers downfall (my parents were divorced) was because I was not a good son, and did not help my father be 'get put his poison' and to be stress free. That I was cursed and poisoned not only Michael's family devestation condition, but the reason my Mom could not find a new husband was because of me.
The wave of shame was so overwhelming that I began to weep uncontrollably.
He started his normal routine of pushing me over the desk at his office, pulled down my pants and told me to understand that because I was the bad seed, he needed to deposit his good seed deep within me. That biblically this is what it means to be a true disciple. Afterwards, he made me smell his arm pits and then I had to give him a tongue bath. He made me begin my licking his chest which was very-very hairy and to this day I can remember the putrid nearly chemical smell which seemed woven into his hairy chest.
Michael told me because I was not being a true disciple as he was hopeful that he had taken to mentoring another new disciple named Dustin Wehde. Michael again told me that because I was a bad seed who made everyone I come into contact with miserable, that if I truly cared for him, that I woud follow through on his plan to have my invade his home in December. If not, he had a new disciple. He asked if I realized how much pain I caused him and my mother because I did not follow his guidance.
Even though I was only 15, this all seems surreal to me, how could my new father figure turn his hatred against me. The worse times were at Vacation Bible School. He would meet me there when everyone else had gone home and he began to bring Dustin who was a just a little older than myself with him. When Dustin would arrive I would cringe as he walked into the classroom as if he were entering a mindfield. With every step Michael could, without warning, detonate speading his shrapnel like fury in every direction.
Weeks prior to Dustins death, I became so cold inside. I was nearly obsessed with hatred toward Tracey and her children and grew jealous of Dustin who was Michael little brainwashed Nazi willing to follow Michaels plan for that night in December & but at the same time Id still pray for their safety.
I could not imagine the hellish nightmare Dustin must have experienced in trying to follow Michaels plan to kill Tracey and the children. All I could pray know is being thankful that Michael chose Dustin as his hitman, and I was fortunate enough to be rescued.
Im sorry about everything. I believed Michael Roberts would kill me if I spoke up. Michael had promised me that we would run off and have a new beginning as father and son the moment I followed his plan. He made the same offer to Dustin and promised they would leave town together that evening.
Michael told me that the adults in my life knew what was going on, and that because I was bad seed, the adults allowed all of this to happen. He told me, that the only way I could matter in life and redeem myself could be to do as I was told.
Remember, he was a friend of my Moms a counselor at Vacation Bible School. That is why when I read this article and saw he was placed on the child abuse registry, plus watched the video of his son Bert describing his beatings at the hand of Michael that I realized, it wasnt my fault. Vacation Bible School and the Churches that allow him around young men are to blame.
Then my own Mother, why did she allow sleep over and late night with this man? How did they miss the warning signs of my troubles with School and not wanting to hug anyone?
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